My husband died in April 2020.
With all the pain that came with it, his death also brought a gift. My husband and I were – and are – very close. This close connection gave me an insight into the level in which we find ourselves after leaving our body.
It gave me a deeper understanding of what Life is. Life is so much more than our “normal” view of it as the opposite of death. Our so-called life is Life, and death is Life, and beyond that is Life.
After my husband’s death, I am able to experience how his energy slowly changes, becoming a little finer and more subtle every few days.
Perceiving his presence
I experience him being present in different ways. For a start, there is the permanent, general feeling of his presence, just as you feel that your (living) partner is in the room while you are looking at your laptop. This way of feeling his presence happens without my attuning to him specifically.
Sometimes his energy floods my body. Now and then I feel his touch, for example as if he were putting his hand on my back.
When I tune in to him, I get a particularly clear perception of his energy. This form of connection is very intense and only lasts for a short time. It feels like our energy fields are touching. It is blissful.
I also communicate with my husband through writing. He gives me new insights, ideas, inspirations.
I have not been alone a day since my husband died – he is always with me, enveloping me in his love, warmth, comfort.
About half a year after his death, my husband told me that we have spiritual work to do, which requires him to be discarnated and me to be incarnated, working together as a team. We have always been a good team.
In an instant the grief stopped (at least that phase of mourning, as I later realized), replaced by joy about what we are now experiencing together, gratitude and love. Deep love. There is still sadness and pain, but the worst stage of grief is over. Our partnership continues – in a different way.
As in life, so in Life: We are together, side by side.